This is it.

Wohoo! Hols have started. Only for one week but enough for me to release everything...tiredness, stress and stop worrying. I hope so. Things are getting worsen for me. It's like my head is gonna burst. It's a whole lot harder when you're growing up huh? Gotta accept the fact that it's not the same anymore. It's not my Disney childhood either mom buys something to cheer me up or getting good night kisses from mom and dad anymore. The differences changed me a lot. I thought growing up was fun. But I should be grateful now. Having a lovely family and friends and a loving boyfriend that loves me so much.

So, it's hols and I'm going to the Youth Rally for three days. Hope it's gonna be fun!

I hope this is going to last like the way we've planned. Please don't ever change. I love you :)

The truths hurt. It hurts even more when you hear it from the person you love the most. It's like as if they're hiding something that you should've known on the first place. The moment the words came out, it felt like you had lost. You can't stop the tears from falling on your cheeks. You'll feel numb and clueless. Even if you forgive that person but the painful feeling is still there. No one cares to know what you're going through, so you would just keep it inside and hide it with a smile.

I've loved and I'm lost.